Sri Aurobindo
Letters of Sri Aurobindo
12. Experiences of the Inner and the Cosmic Consciousness
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It is not possible to distinguish the psychic being at first. What has to be done is to grow conscious of an inner being which is separate from the external personality and nature – a consciousness or Purusha calm and detached from the outer actions of the Prakriti.
The experiences you describe are psycho-physical of which the only important one is the current going up which is the beginning of an attempt to create a path of connection between the mental centre (inner mind, will, vision) in the forehead and the higher centre above.
The obstacles can only be got rid of gradually by persistent sadhana. The alternation of dark and bright states is normal and inevitable.
The light in your experience indicates an action of force (bluish probably indicates the spiritual mind-force) – the rest was a working to open the higher spiritual centre (sahasradala).