There is no need for sadness. Everyone has his difficulties and it is a mistake to desire the state of another1. One must follow the movement of one’s own heart and self and psychic without looking elsewhere.Sri Aurobindo
Letters of Sri Aurobindo
Volume 2. 1935
Fragment ID: 17253
1935
This afternoon I met H. A short talk with him had a profound effect on me as he is always full of the Mother’s love and joy which he spontaneously communicates to others. But after sometime I was annoyed and depressed with myself because I could not receive the Mother’s love and joy in the same way at this stage of my sadhana.
There is no need for sadness. Everyone has his difficulties and it is a mistake to desire the state of another1. One must follow the movement of one’s own heart and self and psychic without looking elsewhere.
If nothing in your mind identified with the vital (it need not be the whole mind) the suggestions would not interfere so seriously nor would you feel them as your own at all. They would present themselves as things passing through or rising and falling away. There must certainly be something in the physical mind that accepts and probably affects the vital mind also.
1 I soon found out that H’s difficulties were much more serious than those of many of us. Finally he left the Ashram for good.